Dreams Coming True

Blog Post, YouTube

Dreams are scary things. They seem far and out of reach. It is a fight to believe dreams are possible, that they could come true. We doubt the full abilities within us. We subscribe to the idea that we are chained to the cards we’ve been dealt. But the few, and far between, go after their dreams; they accomplish them. Those are the people we all aspire to be. Those are the heroes.

I want to be one of those people.

I have a dream of influencing society to see more beauty within themselves and others. My dream is to use the internet to create inspiring things and to reach people outside of my bubble. Currently, there are two ways I see of accomplishing this dream & becoming a dream-fulfiller…

  1. this blog. (this blog has become such a lovely place for me! I am so thankful for each of my followers & readers!)

  2. youtube.

Yes, that is right, youtube!

My boyfriend, Christian, and I have decided to embark on the realm of YouTube. We are so excited to be doing this together. We want our channel to be a safe place for people to find joy within our content, but also to be inspired to think differently and pursue wholeness more. I dream of really bringing our subscribers with us through the journey of life. We want to share about the ups and downs of our relationship, the tensions of figuring out which careers/jobs/ futures to pursue, and our own personal journeys of healing and continuing to become who we were meant to be.

We are thrilled to be pursuing this dream!

I know that some of you much prefer to read things, while others of you probably prefer to watch. My goal is to make both platforms (youtube and this blog) intertwined, but also very similar. So, if you want more of me or more of what I have to say, check out my channel! But this blog will also be a place for people to find more written details of my video content (when applicable).

This dream is something that we have been seriously considering for about 6 months. We kept talking details, coming up with a layout of how to do things, we bought a camera, but then nothing was happening. We even filmed! But, we kept letting it sit, doing nothing. A couple of weeks ago we finally had a tough conversation. We, both, felt fed up that we weren’t doing anything. We were all talk and no action. We, basically, said enough is enough. If we were really going to do this youtube thing…tha
n we need to actually do it. No more talk, just action.

If I am being totally honest, I was scared. I was scared of failing. I was scared of being a disappointment. I was scared of not being funny enough. I was scared of not being good enough. I was scared. But honestly, fear just keeps us away from our dreams. I am over that. I refuse to listen to fear.

Enough is enough.

Which brings me to today.

We have a couple of videos published on our channel so far…and a dozen in the works.

I just want to say…it is okay to scared of dreams. It is okay to even struggle to put action behind the dream. But, let this be your wake up call…

Your time is now.

You can do it.

I believe in you.

The world needs what you have.

GO. FOR. IT.

If you still haven’t click the link yet…here it is: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCp-LeM8KICghiTZyzIPHItQ/featured

And if you are checking out the channel, please subscribe! & you can hit that bell notification to make sure you get notified every time we post!

Thank you for all of the support you, yes you, give me. I feel really honored to have the resources and opportunities to be doing this and pursuing this dream.

XO,

M

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The Never Ending Possibilities

Blog Post

Recently Christian (the boyfriend) has been talking about wanting to accomplish his goals. He has goals and tasks to accomplish that he has been putting off for, who knows how long. But he has decided to begin to cross those things off the ever-growing list of life’s to-dos. Over the last couple of weeks, I have watched him accomplish these things that he has wanted for so long.

His are as simple as building a pedal board, to as intricate as editing youtube videos, and as deep as beginning to take some online training classes. I have felt really inspired to simply go after those things that I want.

Something I have always wanted to do was create more. So, I am slowly trying to do that. I had a friend get married and so I made her & her husband a gift as opposed to just buying one. I have two big canvases that I am going to cover & repaint this summer, or at least I plan to.

I have been trying to go after new healing with my body and my attire. I have tried new styles and different kinds of outfits. I have sent multiple photos to my stylish little sister asking if I am achieving the trend/style that I am going for. But, despite my lack of confidence, I have done it. I have knotted my hair, my shirts, and bought new pairs of shoes. I have rocked the over-sized graphic tees, but also have tried to find confidence in showing off my shoulders. I plan to make small steps to continue to find creativity within my closet.

I have wanted to solidify relationships. Strengthening the ones that are already blossoming and nurture the ones that are growing. I feel like I am going out to coffee with someone every day, which is exhausting at times. But I am trying to find the balance of connection with others and connection with myself.

I have wanted to fall deep in love with pursuing my spirituality, again. It is something that I have always pursued, even when the fire hasn’t been there…but it hasn’t been something that I am always in love with. I have begun to listen to podcasts, talk about spiritual things with friends, and have begun to mediate (fix my mind) on Love.

If I am being totally honest…another goal/dream I have is to figure out my relationship with food and exercise. I hate having to share that, but it’s true. My relationship with food has been a difficult one. I have learned, over the years, that I am an emotional eater. And I have an irrational fear of moving my body. I have fought for years to grow in my love for myself and my body (learn more about my whole story here!) and I have grown so much in that. But, when I think about my goals I think about how I want to get to a better place with those things. I want to feel good in my skin. I want to strengthen my body. And I want to fuel my body with good things. But, I am scared.

Another wise moment from Christian was when he told me to stop worrying about the what-ifs. I had this overwhelming concern about the working out and the learning to eat well. What if I fail? What if I am doing it for the wrong reasons? What if I mess up?

But, what if I succeed?

I think the point in crossing these things off of our lists is not about accomplishing, but I think it is about trying. It is about trying to go after the things in front of us. The things that have been nagging on us. The things that pull on our hearts.

What if I tried to go after these things? What if I tried to find a healthy balance in my eating and exercise? What if I tried to create more?

The other day I was talking to a friend that was struggling. She is battling an intense war for her hope and she was having a hard day. I sent her a video of me reminding her that the day was almost over and a new day would begin again tomorrow. A new day full of new blessings, new opportunities, and new hope. It was in that moment that I realized that each challenge, every single one, is contained within a single day. Each day we get an opportunity to have a different attitude and perspective.

THAT is our challenge. Our challenge is to just do our best each day. Our challenge is to pursue our lists of goals and dreams each day. It is about making small steps towards crossing those things off. It is not about accomplishing everything.

So, today I created. Today, I ate ice cream. Today, I was happy. Today, I fought against the afternoon grumpiness. Today I did my best.

So, What are you trying in your life? Let me know in the comments below!

XO,

M

Lessons Love has Taught Me

Blog Post

Happy Valentines Day!

Well, due to the fact today is the day of love…I feel a beautiful obligation to post something along the lines of romance. Now, as a young woman in her first serious relationship, I am far from a relationship expert. BUT, I have learned waaaayyyy more than ever expected within these last 18 or so months. I have decided to share some of these lessons that I have learned.

Now, I am aware that some of you, beautiful readers, might not be in a romantic relationship, or even might be in a disaster of a romantic relationship, or that maybe you do not want to ever be in a romantic relationship. These lessons I have learned are true for any relationship (romantic or not). So, regardless of your Facebook relationship status, I do encourage you to read on. (Ps: if you are in a disaster of romance…honor and respect what you truly deserve. Which is all the good things the world has to offer)

#1. Forgiveness is key.

Something that I learned very early on within my relationship is that forgiveness is key to a successful relationship. Forgiveness allows a healing of shortcomings, wrong doings, and disappointment. Forgiveness allows a relationship to restore the connection back to before the hurt took place. Forgiveness allows you to continue to develop a pure (untainted) relationship. Forgiveness has allowed my relationship to blossom without any sort of hindrance in my heart, or his.

#2. Your partner is human, too.

When I dreamt about my future relationship, I pictured me and all the things of me but I never pictured him and all of his things. I never pictured things like his strengths, quirks, or insecurities. I did not imagine that my partner would have an overwhelming amount of grace or that he would have an obsession with movies. I did not imagine the required time to learn someone. I did not imagine the required space to allow someone the space to fully express themselves, the good and bad. I appreciate who he is, all of him, and I have learned to allow him the space needed. This lesson has translated into non-romantic relationships, too. The ability to allow someone to be is incredible.

#3. Communication is the most beautiful gift.

Being a communications major, I truly see the glory of communication. I recognize that communication is pivotal to creating the life you want to live. But, I have learned a new depth to my love for communication by being in a romantic relationship, The experience getting to communicate, share, and open up with all of my deep insecurities, needs, and desires is an extremely humbling experience. It is absolutely terrifying to share your inner thoughts and feelings, but communication allows us to create a mutual intimacy. Communication is liberating. It allows me to know my partner more and allows him to know me. It is one of the most beautiful aspects of a relationship. So, be brave in your communicating. Be brave in your expression, even if your voice shakes.

#4. Sacrifice is an honor.

One thing that I didn’t fully recognize until this relationship was the power of sacrifice. I knew that you had to sacrifice for things you love and that anything you say “yes” to requires you to say “no” to other things. but, I did not really realize that I could absolutely find joy within sacrifice. I truly find joy to sacrifice for my partner. I find joy in getting to say “yes” to him everyday and, in turn, say “no” to other things.

#5. Do not overthink it.

One thing that I completely failed at in the beginning of our relationship was that I got caught up with my worries way more than I reveled in the wonder. There is something so special about a new crush and a fresh relationship, but I was so paranoid by what others might be thinking or if I was making a mistake. When I think about my relationship, I get sad by the fact that I let worry steal some of my wonder. I let worry rob me of the gift set before me. Now, with a deep desire to have learned my lesson, I refuse to allow doubt to steal my wonder, excitement, or joy anymore. (I think I will write more on this one day, but if you are in a similar spot I would LOVE to talk more about this. Reach out!)

#6. Find your “perfect” relationship.

Going in to my first serious relationship, I kind of expected things to look like they do in the movies and the tv shows. I expected to constantly gaze into each others eyes, never worry about the amount of coffee drank, and always be in the best outfits (that never had any fashion disasters). What I quickly realized was that those relationships depicted in television are not true relationships. My partner and I had to find the things that work well for him and I. It isn’t about a “supposed to” but finding what works for me and my partner. So, don’t be consumed with supposed to but instead figure out what makes your heart come alive and share that with your partner. Find out what makes their heart alive and celebrate that with them. I now spend my time watching movies, going to music stores, and I drag him with me to explore the aisles of grocery stores.

#7. Love is always worth it.

No matter what you are facing, I promise to you…love is worth the risk. Love is a risky experience. It requires humility, vulnerability, and facing fears head on. Regardless of the difficult things my partner and I have had to face together…experiencing the love we have built and chosen is worth every fear and insecurity and difficulty.

 

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Recent photo with the boyfriend. ❤

 

 

Thanks so much for reading. I hope that, today, you would be surrounded by love (regardless of what that looks like for you). Let me know your V-day plans in the comments below!! ❤

XO,

M